9 days and counting...

So.  One week and change out, and stuff just got real.  

We've received a call to confirm the MRI on Friday.  I'm guessing that the confirmation call for the surgery will happen sometime this week. 

I'm so grateful for God's wisdom and perfect timing.  This week, He placed a person in my path to minister to me that it's okay to be angry.  It's okay to question.  It's okay to not believe what everyone thinks we should be believing. 

I shared bits and pieces of the conversation with my mom, and she was hit with a scripture to share with me.  John 9:1-3.

As Jesus was walking along, he saw a man who had been blind from birth. (read:congenital birth defect)

2 “Rabbi,” his disciples asked him, “why was this man born blind? Was it because of his own sins or his parents’ sins?”

(in other words, what did his parents do that was so bad that God would put this on an innocent, sinless baby?)

3 “It was not because of his sins or his parents’ sins,” Jesus answered. “This happened so the power of God could be seen in him."

Verse 3 is in red in my Bible, so that's from the mouth of my Savior.  I believe that if Jesus were ministering this today, He would look at the disciples and say something to the effect of "Hey, sometimes bad stuff happens to those who don't deserve it.  But you know what?  God's got a purpose for it; He has a plan for it, and He will use the situation to show the world His Glory."

And that, my friends, is what I've been believing since we got the news that Squish isn't a candidate for the heart cath lab.  I never had a solid scripture to stand on, but that's what I've been speaking from the get go.  My mom asked me yesterday if I was believing that the doctors wouldn't have to touch her aortic valve.  I'm not.  I'm believing that if they determine from the MRI that not only will they have to fix her aortic stenosis, but also have to fix her valve, then God's got it.  I believe that if they determine from the MRI that there's miraculously no need for surgery-it was God, and He has had her.  I believe that if based on the result of the MRI that they just need to fix the aortic stenosis, then God's got it.  Bottom line:  God's got it all under control, and He will use Squish AND her situation to bring the most glory to His name, and at the end of it all, she (and we) will be walking testimonies to the awesome-ness of His Will. 

And this, THIS, is what it's all about.  God's got you, Baby Girl!